So the day before yesterday I was writing about how I was unsure about how I am really meant to do mech eng or am I meant to do something else. well now I know that I am meant to do mech eng. I just need to work hard thats all. I know this because yesterday, I got my math test back and I scored 100% plus I got my group report back ans my group got an A* so I'm really proud of them. I believe that this was a sign from God tellin me that I am doing well and that I am meant to be an engineer. I just have to work hard at it. So I have nothing to fear as long as I put everything into God's hands.
God works in strange ways. Sometimes he answers your prayers so quickly and yet sometimes it takes years. This is because the one that takes years, those will be a true miracles and God is just testing our faith. So don't give up and always keep praying no matter what.
Thursday, 17 January 2008
Tuesday, 15 January 2008
Is it really meant for me?
Hmmmm....so today was a bit of a rough day for me but it did end well (i think anyway). I feel normal thats all.
I was up in time for my lab at 9am. Had 2 hours of CAD which we have started a mini project which involves designing and creating a CAD view of a table vice. It was an assembly drawing assignment. Thing is, i dun understand al these drawings. It just makes my head twirl. After 2 hours of wastin time in CAD I had another 2 hours of lab but it was a study on wave forms. It was not too bad but I did struggle because I believed I missed a lecture about 10 weeks ago that covered this topic. OH MY GIGA why are they doin the lab now and not 9 or 10 weeks ago???I think thats really daft. After 2 hours of boredom in lab we were done and it was time for lunch. Someting has been buggin me the pass 2 days. I've been wonderin why am I taking mechanical engineering? Yesterday I got a mini project for engineering mechanics which studies the stress and strains on a dinghy. The project looks really conplicated and I really doo not want to bother about it; but I have an exam for this project in 3 weeks. Also, I have an exam on engineering materials in 2 weeks time and I don't know a thing about it.I mean i really have to study from scratch. Knowing as well that next week there is a math test adn in 3 weeks I have another engineering mechanics test which tests us on everything we have learnt so far plus another test for thermodynamics (which btw, I have no clue about as well). It's not that I have been missin my lectures. it's just that it doesn't make sense to me. Alot of materials and thermo covers chem and I haven done chem in 3 and a half years so wat am I suppose to understand?
I was online with Tiff last night and we were talking about what she learnt in psychology and I must say that i'm really interested. Am I meant to do psychology instead? I know that I do not like to write tons of essays and I cannot memorise stuff for nuts like definitions and stuff. So what am I really meant to study? I like math and putting things together and taking apart, thats why I chose to do engineering. I like to understand how things work. So why is it that I don't understand what I have been learning? Is there a subject that does psychology with engineering as well?that would be awesome.
On the plus side, I drop 1kg from yesterday. Fast work right? I would say i've been rather busy today. I ended up studyin for my math test in the laundry room while waiting for my laundry. I went to the gym twice today. In the afternoon for cardio and just now (evening 8.30pm-10pm) for weight training. All in all it was a so so day. I do really wonder why I am taking mech eng. I feel like a complete blur case here. I also need to start getting the pressure to study for my exams. I just don't feel the stress. Tiff help me find out that it's because I lack the competition over here. It's because that I do not feel any competition that I do not strive to work harder (also talked about in psychology). It's really interesting to know and understand human behaviour. I hope that all these doubts clear up soon because it is something I do not need right now.
All I can say to myself right now is PRAY HARD!!!
I was up in time for my lab at 9am. Had 2 hours of CAD which we have started a mini project which involves designing and creating a CAD view of a table vice. It was an assembly drawing assignment. Thing is, i dun understand al these drawings. It just makes my head twirl. After 2 hours of wastin time in CAD I had another 2 hours of lab but it was a study on wave forms. It was not too bad but I did struggle because I believed I missed a lecture about 10 weeks ago that covered this topic. OH MY GIGA why are they doin the lab now and not 9 or 10 weeks ago???I think thats really daft. After 2 hours of boredom in lab we were done and it was time for lunch. Someting has been buggin me the pass 2 days. I've been wonderin why am I taking mechanical engineering? Yesterday I got a mini project for engineering mechanics which studies the stress and strains on a dinghy. The project looks really conplicated and I really doo not want to bother about it; but I have an exam for this project in 3 weeks. Also, I have an exam on engineering materials in 2 weeks time and I don't know a thing about it.I mean i really have to study from scratch. Knowing as well that next week there is a math test adn in 3 weeks I have another engineering mechanics test which tests us on everything we have learnt so far plus another test for thermodynamics (which btw, I have no clue about as well). It's not that I have been missin my lectures. it's just that it doesn't make sense to me. Alot of materials and thermo covers chem and I haven done chem in 3 and a half years so wat am I suppose to understand?
I was online with Tiff last night and we were talking about what she learnt in psychology and I must say that i'm really interested. Am I meant to do psychology instead? I know that I do not like to write tons of essays and I cannot memorise stuff for nuts like definitions and stuff. So what am I really meant to study? I like math and putting things together and taking apart, thats why I chose to do engineering. I like to understand how things work. So why is it that I don't understand what I have been learning? Is there a subject that does psychology with engineering as well?that would be awesome.
On the plus side, I drop 1kg from yesterday. Fast work right? I would say i've been rather busy today. I ended up studyin for my math test in the laundry room while waiting for my laundry. I went to the gym twice today. In the afternoon for cardio and just now (evening 8.30pm-10pm) for weight training. All in all it was a so so day. I do really wonder why I am taking mech eng. I feel like a complete blur case here. I also need to start getting the pressure to study for my exams. I just don't feel the stress. Tiff help me find out that it's because I lack the competition over here. It's because that I do not feel any competition that I do not strive to work harder (also talked about in psychology). It's really interesting to know and understand human behaviour. I hope that all these doubts clear up soon because it is something I do not need right now.
All I can say to myself right now is PRAY HARD!!!
Monday, 14 January 2008
Off to Genting...
To those who don't really know me, I really love doing spontaneous activities like the following.
on thursday night (10/1/08) I stayed over night at Alex's house with Michelle Ren. At 12.20am we decided to go somewhere really random. At 12.45am we have decided that we are going to drive to Genting. What are we going to do there? We didn't care what we were going to do as long as we go. So at 1am we set off from Alex's house and we were on our way to Genting. That night we had so much fun. We were grooving to some really funky tunes all the way up just so that I could stay awake during the car ride. It was awesome, we stopped for a lil' snack such as McD's hehe. We had nuggets and Alex had a prosperity burger, not like anyone really cares what we ate haha. It was an amazing journey. On the way up the mountain we stopped at view points just to enjoy the scenery. We found so many places to stop and just take in the view. I gurantee that whoever my future girlfriend is, I am going to just drive her up to Genting one random night and just take in the view. It was too amazing and I really couldn't believe that this is what we miss out everyday of our life. I realised that night that my life was so hectic and fast paced that I have never really had the time to take appreciate this kind of things. Now I know that I have to slow down and once in a while and just enjoy what I do.
On our way down, we sang to old school tunes like N'Sync.muahhaa u can't imagine how awesome it was. There isn't really much I can say but WOW!!!!!For those that we invite and couldn't make it, I wish you were there because it was so amazing and I just wish I could have spend that time with you all. So here are a few pics and Clips. Sorry Alex and Michelle, I know some of them may be private but I can't resist sharing good times =)
Btw, I forgot to mention, I kena SAMAN 200 bucks!!!! It's one of the videos down there...
My New Year's resolution
Oh I forgot to mention that today during ym shower after my gym session, I was thinking abotu my New Year's resolution. This is what I cam up with:
1) I am going to constantly exercise so that I am in a fitter shape, in other words im going to lose weight and my target is to be within 75-82 kg and I am going to trim down my tummy.hehe.
2) I am going to finish reading all the books in my Bible
3) I am going to reach out to 5 people this year.
If there is anything else I will add on later
1) I am going to constantly exercise so that I am in a fitter shape, in other words im going to lose weight and my target is to be within 75-82 kg and I am going to trim down my tummy.hehe.
2) I am going to finish reading all the books in my Bible
3) I am going to reach out to 5 people this year.
If there is anything else I will add on later
The night I was leaving
So as you can see I am writing everything in the same night because I just feel like telling people about things that have been happening to me.
So the night that I was leaving around 10pm I think my cell group W22 came and surprise me. Something I knew they were going to do but I did not expect what they did. As you can see below, this is what they made for me =’)
For those who do not understand what it is. This was made with lighted candles across my house on the empty field. The size of this was bout the width of a Myvi most probably. It was humongous! I was really touched; because I thought they were just going to come by and surprise me but instead they did really really huge thing and I really wanted to cry there and then. I was really touched and it made me appreciate them even more. I really can't imagine my life without W22, they have made such a great impact in my life and I love every one of them. We had so much fun that night just taking photos with the big "Juperman" hehe. We took pictures of me giving everybody a piggy back. I think I almost broke my back that night haha. NO NO NOOOOOO....NOT ANOTHER PIGGY-BACK!!! haha. Actually I was still good, not really breaking a sweat, everyone was so light hehe.
Well we ended the night by going into my house and playing "mafia" if you do not know what that is, it's a card game. It was so fun and I killed Michelle by accident haha, I was so sure she was the mafia but she is just not a convincing spy.haha. I was really sad that I had to leave them and head for the airport. I was having so much fun that I really just feel like missing my flight and staying back home. I really believe my Christmas break was too short.
More pictures on facebook, so have a look over there.
Anyway I just want to say THANK YOU W22, you all mean so much to me and I really don't know how to describe you people. You all are indispensable in my life.
My thoughts for today
So this is my second attempt to blog again, meaning this is my second blog and I hope I keep to it this time.
Today (14/01/07) was a very good day to begin with. Albeit the fact that I believe I am suffering from a bit of jet lag. I woke up at 7.30am this morning for no apparent reason. Since I was up so early I decided to head to the gym. I gave Chris a knock but he was wiped so sod it. I had a good session at the gym; I got in a 20 min run and a short weight work out. Actually I am waiting for Chris to get back from his friend’s place because we are suppose to go to the gym again but he is so MIA right now I don’t even know where he is.
Anyway back to what I did today, after gym I had my first lecture at 10am and it was an intro to a new mini project we are doing. We are going to study the stress and strain on a boat dinghy and why it broke. Sitting in the lecture, I was really wondering how I got to this point in life. I feel like I’ve grown up so fast and I am just not ready for what I am learning now. I mean I feel really old just knowing that I am studying all these things that will apply to the work I will do when I am older. I feel like life is just passing me by so fast I don’t even know where it’s going.
After the lecture, I panicked about the lab reports that I had to hand in some time soon. I found out that the report that I couldn’t finish was due in next week so this week I have a chance to meet up with my lecturer to discuss it. I am more relieved now, but I did remember today that I have a presentation on Thursday that me and my group is not prepared for. We plan to meet up on Wednesday after classes to discuss it. Apparently there is going to be a small quiz after our presentation just to make sure we know what we wrote. I also found out today that apart from my exam on the 28th of Jan, I have 3 more class test on week 15 which is in 3 weeks.
That’s the thing about me, I know that I have all these exams and test coming up but I have never once felt the pressure so I do not have the urge to study. Is it something wrong with me or do everybody feel this way?
After my thermo lecture I had lunch and then off to another class. I found out when I arrived that it was canceled and that left me free the whole day. I was quite happy about that so I got back to my room and uploaded pictures onto facebook and just kept myself up to date on facebook. The rest of the day really was spent on thinking a lot and I am not sure why. I listened to the first CD of Pastor Khong’s cultural mandate. I still have about 22 more to go hehe. Actually just before I started this blog I was listening to Pastor Kevin’s sermon on the “The Relevant Church” I paused half way to type this blog.
So today I have been thinking a lot and actually for awhile I was thinking about what Tiff and I talked about over dinner on Saturday. She was telling me about this thing she learned during her lecture which she found interesting. It’s the difference between ‘lonely and alone’. I came to thinking about this because I was lying on my bed and for some reason I felt like I miss everyone I knew. I felt like I was lonely but knowing that I was not. Tiff told me that the difference is that you can be alone and lonely but you can also be lonely but not alone. Alone is defined as solo, single, only, etc… there is so many definitions for it but to me it means to be alone and without anyone. Alone can also mean without any friends. Not in the sense that your friends are not around but in the sense that you have no friends. I found it very interesting actually and it made a lot of sense. So now I wonder why I feel lonely. I have so many friends yet I choose not to talk to them or call them or text them. Instead I choose to sit in my room and just be alone and unsociable. This made me think more and more about my friends and what they mean to me. How they have change and impact my life. Made me who I am today. For so many reasons, I am thankful to God that he has blessed me with each and every one of them. So whoever is reading this, if I know you, thank you for making a difference in my life.
Today (14/01/07) was a very good day to begin with. Albeit the fact that I believe I am suffering from a bit of jet lag. I woke up at 7.30am this morning for no apparent reason. Since I was up so early I decided to head to the gym. I gave Chris a knock but he was wiped so sod it. I had a good session at the gym; I got in a 20 min run and a short weight work out. Actually I am waiting for Chris to get back from his friend’s place because we are suppose to go to the gym again but he is so MIA right now I don’t even know where he is.
Anyway back to what I did today, after gym I had my first lecture at 10am and it was an intro to a new mini project we are doing. We are going to study the stress and strain on a boat dinghy and why it broke. Sitting in the lecture, I was really wondering how I got to this point in life. I feel like I’ve grown up so fast and I am just not ready for what I am learning now. I mean I feel really old just knowing that I am studying all these things that will apply to the work I will do when I am older. I feel like life is just passing me by so fast I don’t even know where it’s going.
After the lecture, I panicked about the lab reports that I had to hand in some time soon. I found out that the report that I couldn’t finish was due in next week so this week I have a chance to meet up with my lecturer to discuss it. I am more relieved now, but I did remember today that I have a presentation on Thursday that me and my group is not prepared for. We plan to meet up on Wednesday after classes to discuss it. Apparently there is going to be a small quiz after our presentation just to make sure we know what we wrote. I also found out today that apart from my exam on the 28th of Jan, I have 3 more class test on week 15 which is in 3 weeks.
That’s the thing about me, I know that I have all these exams and test coming up but I have never once felt the pressure so I do not have the urge to study. Is it something wrong with me or do everybody feel this way?
After my thermo lecture I had lunch and then off to another class. I found out when I arrived that it was canceled and that left me free the whole day. I was quite happy about that so I got back to my room and uploaded pictures onto facebook and just kept myself up to date on facebook. The rest of the day really was spent on thinking a lot and I am not sure why. I listened to the first CD of Pastor Khong’s cultural mandate. I still have about 22 more to go hehe. Actually just before I started this blog I was listening to Pastor Kevin’s sermon on the “The Relevant Church” I paused half way to type this blog.
So today I have been thinking a lot and actually for awhile I was thinking about what Tiff and I talked about over dinner on Saturday. She was telling me about this thing she learned during her lecture which she found interesting. It’s the difference between ‘lonely and alone’. I came to thinking about this because I was lying on my bed and for some reason I felt like I miss everyone I knew. I felt like I was lonely but knowing that I was not. Tiff told me that the difference is that you can be alone and lonely but you can also be lonely but not alone. Alone is defined as solo, single, only, etc… there is so many definitions for it but to me it means to be alone and without anyone. Alone can also mean without any friends. Not in the sense that your friends are not around but in the sense that you have no friends. I found it very interesting actually and it made a lot of sense. So now I wonder why I feel lonely. I have so many friends yet I choose not to talk to them or call them or text them. Instead I choose to sit in my room and just be alone and unsociable. This made me think more and more about my friends and what they mean to me. How they have change and impact my life. Made me who I am today. For so many reasons, I am thankful to God that he has blessed me with each and every one of them. So whoever is reading this, if I know you, thank you for making a difference in my life.
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