Is it really meant for me?

Hmmmm....so today was a bit of a rough day for me but it did end well (i think anyway). I feel normal thats all.

I was up in time for my lab at 9am. Had 2 hours of CAD which we have started a mini project which involves designing and creating a CAD view of a table vice. It was an assembly drawing assignment. Thing is, i dun understand al these drawings. It just makes my head twirl. After 2 hours of wastin time in CAD I had another 2 hours of lab but it was a study on wave forms. It was not too bad but I did struggle because I believed I missed a lecture about 10 weeks ago that covered this topic. OH MY GIGA why are they doin the lab now and not 9 or 10 weeks ago???I think thats really daft. After 2 hours of boredom in lab we were done and it was time for lunch. Someting has been buggin me the pass 2 days. I've been wonderin why am I taking mechanical engineering? Yesterday I got a mini project for engineering mechanics which studies the stress and strains on a dinghy. The project looks really conplicated and I really doo not want to bother about it; but I have an exam for this project in 3 weeks. Also, I have an exam on engineering materials in 2 weeks time and I don't know a thing about it.I mean i really have to study from scratch. Knowing as well that next week there is a math test adn in 3 weeks I have another engineering mechanics test which tests us on everything we have learnt so far plus another test for thermodynamics (which btw, I have no clue about as well). It's not that I have been missin my lectures. it's just that it doesn't make sense to me. Alot of materials and thermo covers chem and I haven done chem in 3 and a half years so wat am I suppose to understand?

I was online with Tiff last night and we were talking about what she learnt in psychology and I must say that i'm really interested. Am I meant to do psychology instead? I know that I do not like to write tons of essays and I cannot memorise stuff for nuts like definitions and stuff. So what am I really meant to study? I like math and putting things together and taking apart, thats why I chose to do engineering. I like to understand how things work. So why is it that I don't understand what I have been learning? Is there a subject that does psychology with engineering as well?that would be awesome.

On the plus side, I drop 1kg from yesterday. Fast work right? I would say i've been rather busy today. I ended up studyin for my math test in the laundry room while waiting for my laundry. I went to the gym twice today. In the afternoon for cardio and just now (evening 8.30pm-10pm) for weight training. All in all it was a so so day. I do really wonder why I am taking mech eng. I feel like a complete blur case here. I also need to start getting the pressure to study for my exams. I just don't feel the stress. Tiff help me find out that it's because I lack the competition over here. It's because that I do not feel any competition that I do not strive to work harder (also talked about in psychology). It's really interesting to know and understand human behaviour. I hope that all these doubts clear up soon because it is something I do not need right now.

All I can say to myself right now is PRAY HARD!!!