My thoughts for today

So this is my second attempt to blog again, meaning this is my second blog and I hope I keep to it this time.
Today (14/01/07) was a very good day to begin with. Albeit the fact that I believe I am suffering from a bit of jet lag. I woke up at 7.30am this morning for no apparent reason. Since I was up so early I decided to head to the gym. I gave Chris a knock but he was wiped so sod it. I had a good session at the gym; I got in a 20 min run and a short weight work out. Actually I am waiting for Chris to get back from his friend’s place because we are suppose to go to the gym again but he is so MIA right now I don’t even know where he is.
Anyway back to what I did today, after gym I had my first lecture at 10am and it was an intro to a new mini project we are doing. We are going to study the stress and strain on a boat dinghy and why it broke. Sitting in the lecture, I was really wondering how I got to this point in life. I feel like I’ve grown up so fast and I am just not ready for what I am learning now. I mean I feel really old just knowing that I am studying all these things that will apply to the work I will do when I am older. I feel like life is just passing me by so fast I don’t even know where it’s going.
After the lecture, I panicked about the lab reports that I had to hand in some time soon. I found out that the report that I couldn’t finish was due in next week so this week I have a chance to meet up with my lecturer to discuss it. I am more relieved now, but I did remember today that I have a presentation on Thursday that me and my group is not prepared for. We plan to meet up on Wednesday after classes to discuss it. Apparently there is going to be a small quiz after our presentation just to make sure we know what we wrote. I also found out today that apart from my exam on the 28th of Jan, I have 3 more class test on week 15 which is in 3 weeks.
That’s the thing about me, I know that I have all these exams and test coming up but I have never once felt the pressure so I do not have the urge to study. Is it something wrong with me or do everybody feel this way?
After my thermo lecture I had lunch and then off to another class. I found out when I arrived that it was canceled and that left me free the whole day. I was quite happy about that so I got back to my room and uploaded pictures onto facebook and just kept myself up to date on facebook. The rest of the day really was spent on thinking a lot and I am not sure why. I listened to the first CD of Pastor Khong’s cultural mandate. I still have about 22 more to go hehe. Actually just before I started this blog I was listening to Pastor Kevin’s sermon on the “The Relevant Church” I paused half way to type this blog.
So today I have been thinking a lot and actually for awhile I was thinking about what Tiff and I talked about over dinner on Saturday. She was telling me about this thing she learned during her lecture which she found interesting. It’s the difference between ‘lonely and alone’. I came to thinking about this because I was lying on my bed and for some reason I felt like I miss everyone I knew. I felt like I was lonely but knowing that I was not. Tiff told me that the difference is that you can be alone and lonely but you can also be lonely but not alone. Alone is defined as solo, single, only, etc… there is so many definitions for it but to me it means to be alone and without anyone. Alone can also mean without any friends. Not in the sense that your friends are not around but in the sense that you have no friends. I found it very interesting actually and it made a lot of sense. So now I wonder why I feel lonely. I have so many friends yet I choose not to talk to them or call them or text them. Instead I choose to sit in my room and just be alone and unsociable. This made me think more and more about my friends and what they mean to me. How they have change and impact my life. Made me who I am today. For so many reasons, I am thankful to God that he has blessed me with each and every one of them. So whoever is reading this, if I know you, thank you for making a difference in my life.